Where do i start? Maybe start with what I feel right now. Honestly, I'm feeling a little lost at the moment. There is a big void inside me. I realize that my level of Iman has not been at its highest right now too. My heart and mind do not sync, and my body is tired.
I've been having deep thoughts about my life lately. The choices I've picked, the mistakes I've done, the circumstances that was presented to me, the risks that i took, the decisions I've made, the actions I've delivered, the words I spoke.
Then I thought about the people I've loved, the people who loved me, the people I've hurt, the people who hurt me, the people I trusted, the people who relied on me, the people who helped me, the people I've left an impression, the people whom I met briefly, the people I befriended and the people who betrayed me.
Who ever you are, and if you are reading this; "I'm sorry and please forgive me."
I'm turning 42 next year! Last I wrote here, I was 28! Those number put together in a sentence sounds crazy and scary! At least to me! Why does it feels like 20 years!? Why?? TT
At this moment, I guess because I'm in the state of still wandering. SAD.
I need an anchor. I know what it is. It's ALLAH. Thats all I need.
May HE guide me. May HE keep me grounded. May HE give me Jannah. Amin.
Please do pray for my wellness; body, mind, and soul.
Sincerely,
Little Girl Inside
